Stuff they never told me.

Dear younger me,

Don't fall so madly in love while you're still in highschool. You are young, you are beautiful, and you don't deserve the heartbreak he's going to cause you. Don't waste your time trying to fit his image of beauty, because it is not who you are nor is it beautiful. He is going to break your heart and leave you with nothing, and it's going to feel as if your heart is clawing its way out of your chest and as if your world is coming to a screeching halt all at the same time. I promise, this won't be the case unless you let it. Get up, stop wearing his shirts and cuddling with those damn teddy bears. You deserve so much more than that.

Oh, and another thing. Open your eyes, sweetie. You know that boy that you refuse to cut from your life for the boy you think loves you? Yeah, well, he's something special. He hasn't let you down yet and he's not going to. Answer your phone when he calls you after your heart gets broken. He's not calling to sweep you off your feet, he's calling to pick up the pieces of your heart, dust you off, and set you on the path to recovery. He's going to be there at 1am when you need someone to talk to just because. He's going to be the best friend he's always been, but he's also going to become so much more. He loves you, y'know. Stop pretending like he'll never be a romantic interest for you, because he will be. Take a chance and let yourself fall freely for him, because he's nothing like the last guy who broke your heart. In fact, he might just be the next guy to steal your heart. When he mentions painting his room, offer to help. I promise you won't regret it.

Sincerely,

An older, wiser me.